Bad luck continues??

I've always been a good luck person. Nothing really great would happen to me but everything usually goes smoothly and I don't have to worry or work things out often. However, this past year and continuing this year are probably the worst in my life. (I think it all started after the summer. So it's only been half a year so far.) First is the Evils from the old apartment. Then the chemical mixed up at work. Now the new apartment I suppose to move in in two weeks may not be available in two weeks. WHAT THE HACK??? Grow-up sucks and I'm quite sick of it. I continue to think if I got curse or something. Seriously, other people might think this is not that bad but trust me. As a good luck, green house baby as ME, it's pretty bad. Or maybe I'm just too spoiled and cannot deal with any obstacles. Hopefully, the Chinese New Year would come and rescue me from the bad luck year!

War in Gaza

I've been trying to avoid hearing, reading, watching any kind of wars in the world my whole life. I'm an ostrich who sticks her head in the sand and refuses to believe human would hurt other human that way. It upsets me so much sometimes I would shake, cry and simply push everything out of my mind so I don't have to deal.

This morning the school invited a speaker to inform students about what's going on in Gaza. I went into the talk in half way and it broke my heart just to hear how people rationalized the war is necessary. I don't know the details of how and why Israel is doing what it's doing, however, not one second that I can agree to any war decisions. Call me native, call me ignorant, anything, civilized people do not hurt each other. As the speaker stepped down, they showed a slide show of the war in Gaza. I stepped out after a few pictures running. I could not do it.

I still remembered the day on 911 I couldn't stop crying and rocking back and forth involuntarily and felt like the world was gonna end. No matter how I avoided to hear all these people died for the justice war in Iraq, the news still sneaked into my brain that we had all these people passed away and we are sending more to die or get hurt. When is this going to end? Or one day the nature will take care of us. There's no more war because there's no more human.

Two more days, two more days~~~

So I finally settled the confusion of getting back my security from my building. Since it kind of requires to let the evils from the apt know that I'm leaving on Wednesday, I emailed them about it and they can look for a new roommate. They were pretending that they were shock but one of them actually have the gut to ask me to join the search of a new roommate. I told them plain no, ain't my problem and I'm walking away. I'm losing almost 2 grand to avoid these morons and they think that I should help them in any ways? Is my head not clear or theirs?

When one of your roommates hasn't been talking to you for more than two weeks, and you've been ignoring her the same amount of time, you'd know that she probably hates you or you hate her. It's plain simple. Especially one gave the other hell about nothing. Honestly, I didn't hate them that much until they try to squeeze me out and blamed everything on me. I just had a hard time to come to the realization that there are evils out there and there's no way to avoid them but move away from them. Everyone knows how they treat others. They should expect that's how they are going to be treated by that person with that standard. That's that. The faux concern is just disgusting.

Now let's just wait for the new life to start!

Ready to go!

Only two more days! I'm very excited about the wonderful new life I'm gonna have. Soooo longing for living in a chill, calm, drama-free place. No need to feeling not belong anymore. No need to see pretendious people anymore (well, still have to see some of them when go to work). No more stress of waiting for people to pick on my behavior or just blame things on me because I'm an easy target. Not much longer, not much longer.

Decided

Finally decided that I have to move either way. Sooner or later. Just sick of being the 2nd class resident in an equally paid apt. I have to admit that spoiled people won't change. They just get rotten more and more. Oh well.

Looking, looking, keep looking

Found the perfect location, without any solid plan. sucks.